I Am Feeling Broken
Or Maybe Just Stunned........
[b]It has not been long since I found my lover...no, Penny..not your lover anymore.....as I type these words, I can blame no one but myself.. I am a very intense lover..I find it immensely difficult to make love...sensuously, intimately..and not fall in love. That is NOT what he wants...and he never claimed otherwise..I have known all along that he would never be mine..but I did think we could have a tumultuous love affair. No..we can not..maybe it's that what I was looking for is impossible to find. I cannot convey the extent to which I will miss him....he is sooooo very close to the man of my dreams!!! A very smart man..sharp of tongue and wit, more understanding and accepting than anyone ever has been..he is the person responsible for making me want my heart to feel again. And it does...just in time to break....again...for my sweet , sensual lover...once again , I must remind myself....NO PENNY...HE IS NOT YOUR LOVER ANYMORE................I must make it clear that it was I who broke things off. Lately, I have witnessed what happens when one lover is more dedicated than the other....if I had continued, it would've evolved into a relationship in which I was much more committed than he.....hell, that's already true.....I find it difficult to believe that I will find another man who speaks to my soul..as he did...I don't know how he did it, but he always knew the right tack to take with me...always seemed to know just what I needed....how to calm my soul and make me see things for myself...I will miss you, my love (no...not your love..hers...)...more than my paltry command of the language can adequately convey.......[/b]
[b]A second ago, I posted a comment to my dear friend blackdress..I tried to put a graphic in, but couldn't .....I wanted you to have it though, my love...here you are:[/b]
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[b]It has not been long since I found my lover...no, Penny..not your lover anymore.....as I type these words, I can blame no one but myself.. I am a very intense lover..I find it immensely difficult to make love...sensuously, intimately..and not fall in love. That is NOT what he wants...and he never claimed otherwise..I have known all along that he would never be mine..but I did think we could have a tumultuous love affair. No..we can not..maybe it's that what I was looking for is impossible to find. I cannot convey the extent to which I will miss him....he is sooooo very close to the man of my dreams!!! A very smart man..sharp of tongue and wit, more understanding and accepting than anyone ever has been..he is the person responsible for making me want my heart to feel again. And it does...just in time to break....again...for my sweet , sensual lover...once again , I must remind myself....NO PENNY...HE IS NOT YOUR LOVER ANYMORE................I must make it clear that it was I who broke things off. Lately, I have witnessed what happens when one lover is more dedicated than the other....if I had continued, it would've evolved into a relationship in which I was much more committed than he.....hell, that's already true.....I find it difficult to believe that I will find another man who speaks to my soul..as he did...I don't know how he did it, but he always knew the right tack to take with me...always seemed to know just what I needed....how to calm my soul and make me see things for myself...I will miss you, my love (no...not your love..hers...)...more than my paltry command of the language can adequately convey.......[/b]
[b]A second ago, I posted a comment to my dear friend blackdress..I tried to put a graphic in, but couldn't .....I wanted you to have it though, my love...here you are:[/b]
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