I Feel Very Isolated
I never thought things would ever feel like this. Not so fractured and irreparable but I guess you gotta expect that when you lose a lot of people you live in a short time.
It's like breaking a dish. The pieces are left over but it's not the same anymore.
Family animosity makes it worse too. Lol
They always say repair relationships with friends. Someone I thought was my best friend basically told me she thought I was a piece of $hit after the last death in our family just a few months ago. So better off right? Yet still there's no one to go for coffee with.
It's all about how you see yourself and all that but it's very hard to see yourself as great with little to no support. And when you make an effort to express your feelings in stories and get bullied both online and in reals it gets pretty hard to "just get over it"
This too shall pass and all that crap I know but it sure is a ?itch and a half
I had to vent and I don't write it so it makes sense to whoever reads it. I write it so I can try to help myself. If you don't like it there's tons of other people's $hit to read. So you can move along.
I'm tired of people saying I don't make sense and no one cares about what my problems are.
If you do care then thanks for reading.
It's like breaking a dish. The pieces are left over but it's not the same anymore.
Family animosity makes it worse too. Lol
They always say repair relationships with friends. Someone I thought was my best friend basically told me she thought I was a piece of $hit after the last death in our family just a few months ago. So better off right? Yet still there's no one to go for coffee with.
It's all about how you see yourself and all that but it's very hard to see yourself as great with little to no support. And when you make an effort to express your feelings in stories and get bullied both online and in reals it gets pretty hard to "just get over it"
This too shall pass and all that crap I know but it sure is a ?itch and a half
I had to vent and I don't write it so it makes sense to whoever reads it. I write it so I can try to help myself. If you don't like it there's tons of other people's $hit to read. So you can move along.
I'm tired of people saying I don't make sense and no one cares about what my problems are.
If you do care then thanks for reading.
36-40, F
