I Miss Her and Still Think About Her

My ex fiance was litterally perfect. She passed away far to early I still think about her. Life hasn't really been the same the 3 years following her death. I have moved on and gone on dates since and I know it's what she would've told me to do but doesn't make it any easier to not have her here. A lot of times I wish it was me instead of her she never drank or smoked and was just an all around great person. I've learned more from her death than I ever thought I would though and while I no longer feel the need to give up like I used to everyday I still wish I could just see her one last time.