I Am Confused About My Gender

i have no clue what i am i feel like I'm a guy but also female i like my male clothes but i also like female clothes i like my parts i was born with but would also like to have breasts but still look like myself facial hair and all and be able to just dress however i wanted whenever i wanted and my personality seems like a mix of both like tear up at a sad part of a movie and also cheer the huge explosion in another one just a big mix