@KimmyGary: That poem you linked me was so intense! I don't think I'll ever forget it. I almost want to call in a 'health and welfare' but I won't. I know it's just a poem, but I sure hope you don't really feel that way much.
@KimmyGary: You need to pay close attention to those feelings and make your bed every morning and keep your windows clean. There are lots of things you can do to make those feelings go away. It was / is a beautiful poem, but the feelings behind it are dangerous and scary. You have a lot of reasons to keep on swinging, and I am sure there are a lot of people who love you!