I Have Been Mentally Abused

When I was between the ages of 16-17 years of age I had a 25 year old teacher who really had a thing for me. At the time it surprised me, but I really craved his attention. Our student teacher bond had turned into a friendship that was way too close for comfort. He even raised my grades when I was failing a semester, because I was always going to be his "favorite student". When I think about it now, it really saddens and disgusts me. I was so isolated my last few years of high school because I felt like I had to go to his classroom after school and talk to him. He took advantage of me and I realize that these few years later. I was sixteen and so confused with the mind games he was playing and the way he spoke to me. Though I won't lie, he was so attractive but that really shouldn't matter. A teacher is there to be your teacher, your guide and that's that. To this day I still think about him, and it's definitely evolved into a place of anger for me. Word of advice younger ones on EP: if your teacher is flirting, giving obvious special treatment or does anything that makes you uncomfortable, please speak up. It may feel cool at first, but it can evolve into something playful and soon becomes a secret. One of my biggest mistakes. I just really needed to talk about this tonight.

Anyone willing to hear me talk about this man in return for advice? This wasn't so long ago, only 21 now. Crosses my mind frequently.