I Am Not Sorry

For years I have been tormented by people, always making me think that my existence and how I am as a human is unworthy and a crime. Well starting now im gonna make a few announcements: First I would like to say that I am not sorry; Im not sorry for the way I look: Yes I have scars and spots all over from my continuing years of fighting eczema, get over it. I cant help that I don't look like beyonce, or shakira, or nicki minaj, and quite frankly I don't want to. my body is perfect in my eyes, and even though Im working on lightening methods for the spots, I think they are battle scars that I have rightfully earned, just to show how tough ive been since I had it at age 2. Secondly, my face is discolored. SO WHAT! Once again my ongoing battle with eczema has darkened my face, I cant help that. Thirdly, my fathers features are more prominent in my face than my moms. OK, this doesn't make me look manly, it is basically showing how faithful they have been to one another and that no one can ever question whether I am his child or not . . . . . Fourthly, im not thick like other African Americans (last time I checked I wasn't the only one like that); Fifthly, So what if I don't party hard or socialize with everyone and their mommas! smh, not everyone wants someone up in their face 24/7. So no, im not sorry for having flawed skin, discoloration, patchy areas on my skin, or anything that people deem unattractive and ugly; But what I am sorry for are the people who will never get a chance to know me. The ones who allow the media to dictate the who's who and the what's in and out. I feel sorry for all the males who thought I was unworthy, and nothing but ugly trash; Those females who tease me because im "not normal". All those people who let looks deter them rather that letting the personality reach out to you. Those are the people I might actually feel sorry for . . . . . . because they will never really get to experience a true friend, nor will they ever really know what it means to love a person inside out. They will go through life miserable all because they never took the time out to get to know someone, simply because of how they look or act. Yes im sorry that my flaws are beautiful, But im not sorry that you think otherwise . . . . . . . Because I care not.