I am so grateful for what I have no doubt. Good paying job, place to live, food, medical care, 401k, retirement, and my wife. I thank god for all of it.
I have a history of mental illness and on a cocktail of drugs that I have been taking for 10 years. Best decision I have made for sure. I was able to get a job and find someone that I love to marry. I am able to do so much more these days with hard work and good doctors supporting me along the way.
I have noticed for probably about 6 months or so I am slowly going backwards. Main thing is the energy. I go to work and come home tired to do anything else. I have been feeling more sad and shut in. I have noticed just overall more negative thoughts in my head throughout the day. I am unhappy about something and been trying to figure out what is going on.
Just crazy how depression will literally affect every aspect of your life. It fallows you everywhere zapping you mentally and physically.
So my goal is to push myself and make a change. Get out of the routine of things. Maybe finding a bigger place for me and my wife at a new location would help. Maybe start experimenting and cooking more.
These are just some thoughts I have. Would be great if you could tell me what you think. Thanks so much guys. I could really use the support right now through the rough times.