I'm Sorry

Latley ive been trying to get out more and so heres what happend, I did just that and the people I saw who were in my classes ignored me. It has been happening a lot latley where I will see a classmate and I call out their name and the turn their head the other way and just keep walking even when I try walking towards them.

Really for me, it really tears me apart to know and see that people would go to such lengths to avoid me. Then back in class they still avoid me. I wonder if there is something on me that only I can't see sometimes, really I do.

If I am being a bother to those people I do sincerely apologize (not that any of them are reading this but) it really tears me apart inside and I swear this is part of why I have social anxiety disorder.

I have a good day and try and be friendly, I try to get out of my head and people just push me back in there. Makes me feel sorry to myself that I even tried to come out.