I Am Drinking Right Now

This is the first time in weeks I have sat in my apartment by myself and not been busy. I don't know what to do with my time right now. There's laundry to do but there's also beer in my fridge and a desire to write. I'm 2 in. I'm also a light weight and taking some medication for anxiety attacks... because today I was scared it was coming on. It's a new medication so I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Do you ever get that weird drunk? Like the kind where you suddenly realize how quiet everything is? It use to scare me. Now I just kind of chill and keep myself occupied. It's pretty cool to have made so much progress.
I just realized I spend so much of my time distracting myself. Like, not really doing anything... just filling my time. I need to start doing something productive lol.


I need to reflect on what's been going on in my life. Lots of confusion...