I Am Moving Forward

I've been thinking a lot lately about my future. What do i want to do with the rest of my life. The sky is the limit, i've always believed. Where do i want to be in 5 years?, 10? or 15?. What are the goals that i want to achieve? For so long I have lived my life like I have nothing to offer to this world. I got so mixed up in these crazy things that people created about me. I'm realizing now that what people said or did to me in the past doesn't matter anymore. I blamed my life on all the people who hurt me and I know now that I am who i am because of me! I let them get to me. Here i was miserable, trapped in my own tears while the rest of the world moved forward and lived their lives, and i stayed back in the past. I admit I was terrified to move on. In someways I always will be but thats just how you grow and learn. You have to push yourself to be something greater even if it's a little scary to take your first steps. I'm not playing the victim card anymore. I'm going to accept my past as what it was and learn from my mistakes and start fresh. It's time for a clean slate.

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Ya being deployed i finally decided to do the same thing when i get back to the states. Was always that kid in high school sitting alone, always had my head phones in, very anti social. I just could not seem to understand others, how they could be so happy, how they could open up so easy. Talk to each other so loudly without being nervous. But now I realize I was letting troubles at home get the best of me. Seeing that i can't change what was done can prepare for better, change my future the way I want so I don't repeat the past.