It took me so long to really like myself, and I realized that people can't MAKE me feel anything. I LET them, so I decided to stop that and like me because I'm worthy of being loved. (Perfect? NO - I'm not perfect.) You only get one trip around the globe, and you deserve to be happy. You are beautiful, creative, and loving, but if you don't demand that people respect you and treat you kindly, then you will accept it when terrible things are done. Is it easy? Heck no. My relationship is not ideal, but I no longer allow him to make me feel terrible about myself, and I let him carry his own negativity. I refuse to let someone else's drama dictate the course of my life. I hope you find happiness because you really deserve it.