I Am Estranged From Family Members

Sometimes I want to tell you exactly how shitty I think you've been to me. I want to tell you everything that you've done that's unfair. I want ask why you never gave me a chance, why you can't ever think of anyone besides yourself. Then I remember that...it wouldn't matter if I did. Would it solve anything? No. Would you care? No. Then I feel angry again, because I don't matter to you. But you matter to me.

I guess that's what I need to forgive.

I forgive you for not loving me.


Hmmmmmm. Nah, still feel kinda angry.