I Am A Victim Of Emotional Abuse And Verbal Abuse

I'm 21 years old Asian and i'm emotionally abused by my parents my entire life and it was just recently that i realized that. They always tell me that it is totally enough for them that they provide me food and education, every other aspect of my life is on my own. My wants and needs are ignored, they only give me what they want to give me, moreover, my emotions are ignored too and nothing i have ever done in my life make them proud or good enough for them, there are always going to have someone or something better that they bring out to compare with me, to put me down. They used to beat me when i was a child, now that i'm an adult they stopped beating me, but the emotionally abuse are still there. They still tell me what to do and treat me like a child. And i am awaken because i realized i started to be an abuser myself and loose a close friend. I want to change myself and heal myself from the abuse. Any advice for me?