I Am A Victim Of Emotional Abuse And Verbal Abuse

I hear people talk about how much they love their mom and how we should respect them...but what i can't stand is when they try to make others do the same. And all i can think is, how can i love and respect someone who abused me physically, bullied me, and verbally abused me since i was 5 and now as I've gotten older still verbally abuses me! Those words and beatings don't ever stop replaying in my head it's lead me to depression, low self-esteem, i was even anorexic bc all she did was laugh and say how fat i was growing up. Yet im still not good enough for her. Tell me how im supposed to love a person who's done that to me...