I Am Sad

I don't know who to trust your surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit

Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away'cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you