I know the feeling. I am living alone in a rooming house, one room, nothing much happening in my life due to health issues and lack of funds. I am slowly saving money so I can move out and up in the world; at this rate, I know it will take another year or so. I just had a humiliating year trying to make new friends and failing at it. It had come to the point of begging someone close to me but living far away to phone me every week or so...but the more I begged, the less she called. Now I almost never hear from her, probably my fault. It is Mother's Day and I have no kids.
I sure didn't envision this as my life either.
But one advantage of being old is knowing how everything changes, often in ways we have never imagined. Your life turned into this, and it can turn into something else in the future. So can mine, even at my age.
One of these days--or weeks or months--we will both be out of the doldrums and sailing somewhere on a new journey. May it happen soon for both of us.
