I Am Feeling Down

Had a rough week. My mom said some horrible unforgivable things.
I still want to forgive her I still want her in my life. Yet she says she doesn’t care wether I’m in her life or not.
She told me to stay away.
All the anxiety coping strategies just don’t work.
I can’t shake off this feeling. I don’t know how long it’s going to last. I want this feeling to pass. I want to be happy.
When I’m down I usually ring her. When I need anything I usually ring her.
She really doesn’t want me in her life.
I can accept it and do the things people suggest to help.
It hasn’t helped. I’m still feeling like I wish I wasn’t here.

*update* my mom called me
I don’t think she regrets saying those things or is even sorry.
I’m going to just let it pass and put it down to mental health.
Iv been there and when I was really down I was horrible sometimes too.