I Am Feeling Down

You might not even come to realize this.
When am down i reach to you.
Just talking to you makes me feel good.
Its like you are theraputic to me.
It heals me.
Last yesternight i could not sleep,
All could think about is your last hug.
It was wonderful, i really miss that.
All my life i have been very cautious,
I think and think again about my choices.
Yet they backfire on me.
In end i feel like i made the wrong choices.
Why cant this girl be excused for once?
I want to make a wrong choice knowingly.
I want to experience another world.
A world of being carefree, i want to be free spirited.
I want to cry and say atleast i know it was wrong and i went for it.
A cry of happinesses, i will have achieved my personal growth to higher level.
Knowing that i can make a wrong choice and be happy with it.