I Am Feeling Down

After a few years I have finally told my parents about the suicidal thoughts I had. Regretting it now, my mother is upset at herself for not seeing that I was in pain at the time believing that if she had focused a little more on me than she did she could have seen it and thinks that I felt unable to talk to her. This was not the case, I simply didn't know what to say, feared upsetting them both and tried to hide it. Now that period of my life has been dragged back up. I feel awful that I upset my parents so much, they would have been better without me telling them. If you are going though hard times tell them, that's when they can help after you have gone through the pain and managed to move on it's too late.