I Am Feeling Down
Sick Of Being The Sad Clown... I know its a cliché but its true.
I was never the happiest person but over the last 5 months I have really lost it. Gone from just never really feeling happy to feeling down all the time. Going through drinking binges, going days without eating then eating all the wrong things for days on end. Starting to really think I am destroying myself now. Last week it really hit me how low I am, I never cry or even come close. Have become very good at hiding my feelings but out of nowhere last wednesday I just brokedown on a bus. I never talk about how I feel with my friends or family as I cannot see how they help but even they are now starting to see the cracks sending me messages asking me what is going on and when I was out drinking last some of my friends waited until they thought I was drunk to ask what is up. I don't know what to say as I can't pin point why I feel like this. It is more than just one or two things seems to be everything at the moment is making me worse.
I was never the happiest person but over the last 5 months I have really lost it. Gone from just never really feeling happy to feeling down all the time. Going through drinking binges, going days without eating then eating all the wrong things for days on end. Starting to really think I am destroying myself now. Last week it really hit me how low I am, I never cry or even come close. Have become very good at hiding my feelings but out of nowhere last wednesday I just brokedown on a bus. I never talk about how I feel with my friends or family as I cannot see how they help but even they are now starting to see the cracks sending me messages asking me what is going on and when I was out drinking last some of my friends waited until they thought I was drunk to ask what is up. I don't know what to say as I can't pin point why I feel like this. It is more than just one or two things seems to be everything at the moment is making me worse.
31-35, M