I have no idea we’re my life is going
I’m moving in with my friend meaning I might have to sell everything I own as she’s internationally , I have to literally start a new life and I’m crying every day as I’m so scared , I can’t stay in the Uk as there’s nothing for me and my dad has been holding me back for years , I feel depressed and I’m crying every day leaving my Abusive dad hurts so much as I love him and I keep hoping he will respect me one I feel sorry for my dad. I have to learn to drive too before I move out and I’m scared the thought of driving terrifies me , I wanted to learn at 16 but my dad stopped me until I turned 21. I’m struggling to find another strip club job I need one before I can go , I need to keep my weight as low as possible as I do modelling too , I’m sick of doing cam work as clients ask for way too much and it’s burnt me out. I’m not getting enough money on cam as I’m not doing enough hours due to being too exhausted and depressed. I have to say goodbye to all my friends and family and clients it’s hurting me so much it hurts every day I don’t even know when I’m moving out , it could happen at any time and I’m just a mess and so behind in life for my age.