I Hate Mother's Day

I hate Mother's day. It's a reminder of something I'll probably never have. I've had 4 back to back miscarriages. Mother's day is just a reminder of that fact. I hate having to pretend that everything is ok. I hate feeling the jealousy when I see all the mom's enjoying their day with their children. Don't get me wrong. I'm very thankful for my mom. And I call her and make sure she knows that. But while we are conversating over the phone, I'm holding back tears and trying my best to sound happy. Every year the same shattered feeling hits me on this day. I remember them all, every loss. I HATE MOTHER'S DAY!!!