I Hate Mother's Day

I know it has already passed, but this years and every other years occurrence came to mind. I don’t hold a healthy relationship with my mom, I’ve tried over the years, but she isn’t willing to having me as a part of her life, she left me with my father when I was young, and never came back. I’ve learned to forgive her. So like always, I always try to call her to at least say happy Mother’s Day, I haven’t seen her in years. She usually never answers the phone other than on mother’s day, and we only talk for a few minutes before hanging up. And today that just hit me, and now I find myself, crying over it. And feeling resentment, for how much I truly hate Mother’s Day..