I Want You to Read This Before You Add Me to Your Circle
Who Am I? - Vol 2...
-It has been well over half a year since I wrote the story "Who am I", in which I clumsily tried to give that question an answer. But six months have passed since then, and I am no longer that man. Feel free to ignore the original story from this point on. I'll leave it there, because I don't feel like deleting it, but this is the 'me' that I am now.
So, who am I?
My real name is Miroslav. I see no real reason to hide this.
I come to Experience Project regularly, because it is the only place in the world where I feel I can be myself, without lying to people.
I am a troubled individual, plagued often by my personal demons and doubts.
I have anger related issues, and one of my deepest fears is that I may one day harm another. But there's hope yet, as I have made huge strides battling this demon. For the first time in years, I feel that I could actually win this.
I also carry many secrets, secrets that I will take to my grave. If you ever, by any means, see glimpses of that side of me... the hints of the darkness I carry buried deep within... please remember this - it was never meant for you to see any of it. Push it out of your mind, forget all about it. I will say no more on the matter.
More so than not, I fight depression. Whether I'm winning or not, figuring that out is beyond me. But I haven't lost yet, so I'll take that as a sign that I'm doing something right.
On the more positive side of things, I also carry in me many hopes and dreams of the future. I have this burning desire to write, and one day I am hoping to become good enough to publish my own books. I also have a passion for drawing, but I'm as horrible as you can get with it without it looking like a kindergartener drew it. I should note that I have vastly improved over the last three months that I've been practicing and reading online tutorials, but it's still far beneath the level I crave for. One day though, I am hoping to become a comic book artist.
I have dedicated the past five and a half years to studying Engish language in hopes of becoming a teacher and pass on that knowledge to new generations. (It's a dream I fulfilled, briefly, last September when I became a substitute teacher - but the dream was crushed prematurely when I got fired at the end of December, due to some irregularities with my diploma. I have to pass my last remaining exam and do my diploma paper - that will earn me the status of "Master Philologist of English language" (currently I don't have the 'master' part). Than I will be all clear to try again, according to the school's lawyer.
I also seek to become an accomplished English/Serbian translator.
I love making people smile. I don't know why. But I don't like seeing sad people.
I'll never abandon my friends.
Whatever path it is that I choose, I will walk it under my own strength, and I will never give up, no matter how many times life brings me down to my knees.
I am a Christian, a member of the Serbian Orthodox Christian Church to be precise. Whether I am a good Christian or not, I cannot decide. But I will never follow anything blindly. I believe that God gave us humans the freedom to life, and freedom to choose. It is upsetting how many people brandish the fist, but act as if they had never heard of the second. I believe that it is up to us, mortal flawed humans to protect and nurture this world we live in. It is our responsibility. But I won't bother you with this anymore. If you are interested I have a separate story on the subject.
I believe in angels (no, not the one with halos), because three of them saved me when I almost gave up hope myself.
Now for the things I disapprove of:
-Abusers. Of any kind.
If you abuse people, whether physically or mentally, stop. I won't add you.
If you abuse substances, stop. I will not add you.
If you abuse my trust. I will block you.
-Extremists and fanatics of any kind. Be it religion, atheism, feminism, the men's rights movement, anti-gun control or anything else. I will never approve of those who would force their views upon others.
-If you try and hurt my friends. Forget being added. I'll block you. And report you. And write a letter of complaint to EP moderators, if I find enough evidence against you.
-If you have nothing on your profiles, or if your profiles are overall sexually oriented. For the first, please know that I am not a chatter, and that I interact with others mainly through stories/story replies, questions&answers, confessions and etc. I use PM very rarely, and the chat option never at all. For the second, I have no desire to engage in anything of the sort, so if that is your goal, look elsewhere.
-If your primary focus here is to ask ridiculous and meaningless questions. While I have nothing against a laugh here and there, I have very little interest into people who do that and nothing else.
If after reading this, If you still wish to add me for a friend, you are more than welcome.
"Good bye and hello, as always"
-It has been well over half a year since I wrote the story "Who am I", in which I clumsily tried to give that question an answer. But six months have passed since then, and I am no longer that man. Feel free to ignore the original story from this point on. I'll leave it there, because I don't feel like deleting it, but this is the 'me' that I am now.
So, who am I?
My real name is Miroslav. I see no real reason to hide this.
I come to Experience Project regularly, because it is the only place in the world where I feel I can be myself, without lying to people.
I am a troubled individual, plagued often by my personal demons and doubts.
I have anger related issues, and one of my deepest fears is that I may one day harm another. But there's hope yet, as I have made huge strides battling this demon. For the first time in years, I feel that I could actually win this.
I also carry many secrets, secrets that I will take to my grave. If you ever, by any means, see glimpses of that side of me... the hints of the darkness I carry buried deep within... please remember this - it was never meant for you to see any of it. Push it out of your mind, forget all about it. I will say no more on the matter.
More so than not, I fight depression. Whether I'm winning or not, figuring that out is beyond me. But I haven't lost yet, so I'll take that as a sign that I'm doing something right.
On the more positive side of things, I also carry in me many hopes and dreams of the future. I have this burning desire to write, and one day I am hoping to become good enough to publish my own books. I also have a passion for drawing, but I'm as horrible as you can get with it without it looking like a kindergartener drew it. I should note that I have vastly improved over the last three months that I've been practicing and reading online tutorials, but it's still far beneath the level I crave for. One day though, I am hoping to become a comic book artist.
I have dedicated the past five and a half years to studying Engish language in hopes of becoming a teacher and pass on that knowledge to new generations. (It's a dream I fulfilled, briefly, last September when I became a substitute teacher - but the dream was crushed prematurely when I got fired at the end of December, due to some irregularities with my diploma. I have to pass my last remaining exam and do my diploma paper - that will earn me the status of "Master Philologist of English language" (currently I don't have the 'master' part). Than I will be all clear to try again, according to the school's lawyer.
I also seek to become an accomplished English/Serbian translator.
I love making people smile. I don't know why. But I don't like seeing sad people.
I'll never abandon my friends.
Whatever path it is that I choose, I will walk it under my own strength, and I will never give up, no matter how many times life brings me down to my knees.
I am a Christian, a member of the Serbian Orthodox Christian Church to be precise. Whether I am a good Christian or not, I cannot decide. But I will never follow anything blindly. I believe that God gave us humans the freedom to life, and freedom to choose. It is upsetting how many people brandish the fist, but act as if they had never heard of the second. I believe that it is up to us, mortal flawed humans to protect and nurture this world we live in. It is our responsibility. But I won't bother you with this anymore. If you are interested I have a separate story on the subject.
I believe in angels (no, not the one with halos), because three of them saved me when I almost gave up hope myself.
Now for the things I disapprove of:
-Abusers. Of any kind.
If you abuse people, whether physically or mentally, stop. I won't add you.
If you abuse substances, stop. I will not add you.
If you abuse my trust. I will block you.
-Extremists and fanatics of any kind. Be it religion, atheism, feminism, the men's rights movement, anti-gun control or anything else. I will never approve of those who would force their views upon others.
-If you try and hurt my friends. Forget being added. I'll block you. And report you. And write a letter of complaint to EP moderators, if I find enough evidence against you.
-If you have nothing on your profiles, or if your profiles are overall sexually oriented. For the first, please know that I am not a chatter, and that I interact with others mainly through stories/story replies, questions&answers, confessions and etc. I use PM very rarely, and the chat option never at all. For the second, I have no desire to engage in anything of the sort, so if that is your goal, look elsewhere.
-If your primary focus here is to ask ridiculous and meaningless questions. While I have nothing against a laugh here and there, I have very little interest into people who do that and nothing else.
If after reading this, If you still wish to add me for a friend, you are more than welcome.
"Good bye and hello, as always"
31-35, M
