I Feel Useless and Helpless

Today is just one of those days where I feel absolutely worthless. I'm just a massive liar, a weirdo, I'm ugly, and I'm stupid. I lie because I feel unsafe if I don't. Sometimes I feel like I'm so ugly that I refuse to look into the mirror. The only thing that I can actually do right is play video games. And what good will that do? NOTHING. After being told that you are worthless, a waste of life, and a freak that should be in a mental home countless times... Added with the fact that you get beaten up as well, you kind of lose it. Sometimes I wish that all of this was a dream, or none of it was real. That's probably not true, but it's the only thing that gives me hope. My ultimate wish is that I would get sick and I would die, and be forgotten by everyone else.