I Want To Rant
I'm going to Utah at the end of the month to visit my dads side of the family. I'm not looking forward to this for a number of reasons. And due to my current bad mood, I'm going to list 'em out. *ahem*
1. My dads wife made it pretty clear she doesn't want me to come; at least in her passive-aggressive way. Nor do I want to be around her. I'd imagine we're driving to Utah so.. I'll be stuck in a car with her for a solid ten hours on the way there, then again on the way back.
2. I'm the black sheep of my dads side of the family. Primarily because I'm an Atheist.. and they most certainly are not. This causes a lot of differentiating opinions. Like their extreme disapproval of homosexuality, tattoos, and most importantly: tank tops.
3. I'm also an underachiever. In every day life, and by their standards as well. Men on my dads side of the family are expected to go on religious missions when they turn eighteen, then marry when they come back home. Women get married generally between the ages of nineteen to sometime in their early twenties and make allllll the babies.
So.. I've never been in a relationship, and I'm indifferent towards having kids. Their response to such news is to hand me their babies and tells me how great motherhood is.. which is super uncomfortable.
4. My last bit on religion: A couple of my cousins are aware of me being an Atheist. One is really open minded, which is great. The other is convinced I'm their religion, I just don't know it yet. Which is hella obnoxious.
5. Because I have nothing in common with any of my relatives, I'll be bored and alone the whole time.
6. Constant touching. I really hate it when people touch my arms or shoulders in an attempt to establish a bond that isn't there. Asking for space doesn't affect the situation at all.
7. When this trip starts, I wouldn't have seen my dad for about two months. I don't really know how to explain why this is a negative- it's not easily put into words. It'll be like seeing an old friend randomly at the store after no communication for a while; it's good to see them, it's just kinda hard to start a conversation.
Anyway.. I think those are the big reasons. I don't want to wallow too much; it's not cute. But everyone's allowed to complain every now and again.
Quite honestly, the only reason I am going is because my grandparents are getting old. This may be my last chance to see them, so it's an opportunity I'm not skipping out on.
1. My dads wife made it pretty clear she doesn't want me to come; at least in her passive-aggressive way. Nor do I want to be around her. I'd imagine we're driving to Utah so.. I'll be stuck in a car with her for a solid ten hours on the way there, then again on the way back.
2. I'm the black sheep of my dads side of the family. Primarily because I'm an Atheist.. and they most certainly are not. This causes a lot of differentiating opinions. Like their extreme disapproval of homosexuality, tattoos, and most importantly: tank tops.
3. I'm also an underachiever. In every day life, and by their standards as well. Men on my dads side of the family are expected to go on religious missions when they turn eighteen, then marry when they come back home. Women get married generally between the ages of nineteen to sometime in their early twenties and make allllll the babies.
So.. I've never been in a relationship, and I'm indifferent towards having kids. Their response to such news is to hand me their babies and tells me how great motherhood is.. which is super uncomfortable.
4. My last bit on religion: A couple of my cousins are aware of me being an Atheist. One is really open minded, which is great. The other is convinced I'm their religion, I just don't know it yet. Which is hella obnoxious.
5. Because I have nothing in common with any of my relatives, I'll be bored and alone the whole time.
6. Constant touching. I really hate it when people touch my arms or shoulders in an attempt to establish a bond that isn't there. Asking for space doesn't affect the situation at all.
7. When this trip starts, I wouldn't have seen my dad for about two months. I don't really know how to explain why this is a negative- it's not easily put into words. It'll be like seeing an old friend randomly at the store after no communication for a while; it's good to see them, it's just kinda hard to start a conversation.
Anyway.. I think those are the big reasons. I don't want to wallow too much; it's not cute. But everyone's allowed to complain every now and again.
Quite honestly, the only reason I am going is because my grandparents are getting old. This may be my last chance to see them, so it's an opportunity I'm not skipping out on.
26-30, F
