I Want to Become a Living Doll

Oh, how I would love to see you take up this habit replacing another... and I bet you feel the same, my friend. I'm not lecturing you. You're a human not just a huffer. If this old boozer may give a bit of advice. Please don't waste time hating what you do or who you are, even if others say you should. All habits, helpful and harmful, start from a desire to improve the state we're in. Try simply focusing on that desire, on what you wanted to improve, and think about finding other directions to take it. That worked much better for me than guilt-trippy "powerless" therapy, y'know? I turned music and art into my favorite drug. Hope you don't mind my going on like that. Peace.

@MissPriscillaPrim may I talk to you? I for some reason can not add you as a friend, and you are quite enticing. Someone like you I have longed for and hoped to exist.

@shirtlover Thank you for reaching out like that. This website is not the best place to do it, though.
There's a problem. I can't trust that everyone is who they say they are online, but I do trust that you are under the age of 18, and I have to be careful about an out-of-control legal system. What I've written about sexual matters on this website, and about justice and personal control, about this illegally installed police state monitoring and controlling people's behavior and thinking, makes me a possible target for being framed for illicit activity with a minor, even though, in all innocence, I wish I could simply help a young person in their struggle with bad habits. I have to protect myself, and you could very well be an officer of the law trying to entrap me. I'm very sorry. You can surely find others in real life, or on other websites, who would like to give friendly help without judging you, if you seek them out.

Oh goodness, but you seem simply divine :c

@shirtlover Not me -- my "dreamboat" is indeed Divine. So is your admiration. Please continue to feel pleasure and hope from picturing me, and I hope a love of Excellence may sustain you.

The creative imagination is one of the three things I call sacred, with motherhood and the Earth, where we came from, where we'll return, our minds living in the meantime. Sorry, getting fancy-wordy, but that outlines my Pagan faith that keeps me going. I can safely share that much. Like they say, just cuz you're paranoid doesn't mean they're NOT after ya! ☺

@MissPriscillaPrim and I also must say I love your bow tie in your profile picture! The descriptions of what you wear are lovely and exciting, how I wish I had the same clothes to dress the same!

@MissPriscillaPrim goodness how lovely

@shirtlover I am working with a tailor at last to really build for me a prim-and-proper Lady's Suit in black with a white lacey high-collared mantle and a grand crisp bow tie. This costume is to be a kind of emotional insurance or bandage against the likelihood of a grim future for both this nation's and my personal well-being. I may need to end my days cocooned in a little room if the future develops as I fear: my faculties weakened, and venturing out extremely dangerous because our government of plutocrat's whores has abandoned the rest of us, and we're ever more resembling Puerto Rico, Gaza, and/or Somalia... That's the big picture as I see it. Have a nice day (smile and curtsey)

@MissPriscillaPrim sorry about the bad news, but I'm glad to hear of your lovely lady's suit being made!

Speculation is not bad news. I sincerely hope the future is better than that, but while I'm able, I decided to have this option ready as a sort of life raft. It doesn't matter much to me who reads this, Officer
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AN OPEN LETTER. I'm a writer and a retired musician and a sissy Queer, and I fear for the future, my own as well as our fracturing society's. I've read enough history and literature to know there's nothing uniquely modern or American about creative artists struggling against the pressure to conform to mediocrity while chemically exploring altered states of consciousness; such people have appeared in many times and places, probably universally. I have repeatedly tried and failed to be like others. Our former democracy is now taken over by people who clearly consider that failure and my pursuit of independence, as well as the one you describe for yourself, to be not just immoral but criminal states of mind. As I said before, I'm always aware I can never be sure if others are who they claim online, and I express those doubts freely as I honestly describe myself. I guessed this is why you have blocked me, but I'd assure you my skepticism is not the same as personal mistrust. I apologize if I seemed judgemental. While I'm frightened by your drug of choice, I recognize you're an intelligent man, and I'd be a terrible hypocrite if I pretended huffing solvents (I've always felt an enticing allure in their smell but avoided acting on this) is so different from the hard liquor I've enjoyed throughout my adult life. I can tell booze has affected my memory, but mindful breath-meditation has greatly curbed my drinking habit and proven my mind is not as damaged as I sometimes fear, and I can't recommend meditation strongly enough. I wish you peace & blessings on your way.
"Miss Prim"