I Wonder Why

I wonder why I took my time when I was desperate to make a difference.
I wonder why I didn't try a little harder to fix my mistakes.
I wonder why I can't make you understand how I really feel.
I wonder why I can't be a better friend.
I wonder why I haven't sacrificed more for others.
Am I selfish? Self involved? Or is it just human nature? Can I be blamed ? Can you? I wonder.