I Am Tired Of Being Hurt And Sad
I have a friend.Her name is lets say Ms.X.we both were really close friends.At the beginning of first two semesters everything was fine.I finally felt I got a best buddy.But as usual fate din`t leave me.At the beginning of third sem she started to hangout with someone else. Lets name her Ms.Y. Ms.Y is like a live wire.She makes witty jokes.To describe myself I`m an introvert.I am a good listener.I don`t speak much.
I told her that I feel lonely..because she was my oly frnd in colg.She too knows that but she just said to me that "I just don`t know why people are ordering me whom I should be with" in her stern face.I almost cried.
After almost 3 months I swallowed my anger and I tried to accept the new girl(Ms.Y). One day Ms.Y was absent.I had quality time to spend with my friend(Ms.X). But my friend came to me and said " I really miss her(Ms.Y).She is the best buddy I ever got.She is awesome..I really miss her company"
I felt like shit.Then why in the hell are you hanging out with me.She din`t even respect my feelings.Those lines made me to feel that am I not a worth being a friend.
In the past 2 years before the entry of Ms.Y she never praised me or even defended for me to someone who tried to show me down.But now all of a sudden she showers her love to her,defends for her and the worst part...I can`t even ignore her.I really miss her... I just don`t know what is wrong with me.People loves who gossip about others and make shit jokes on someones feeling.
I can`t make witty jokes.I am quite temperamental..but that is a part of my character.Will I never have a true friend..who really loves me..:'(
I told her that I feel lonely..because she was my oly frnd in colg.She too knows that but she just said to me that "I just don`t know why people are ordering me whom I should be with" in her stern face.I almost cried.
After almost 3 months I swallowed my anger and I tried to accept the new girl(Ms.Y). One day Ms.Y was absent.I had quality time to spend with my friend(Ms.X). But my friend came to me and said " I really miss her(Ms.Y).She is the best buddy I ever got.She is awesome..I really miss her company"
I felt like shit.Then why in the hell are you hanging out with me.She din`t even respect my feelings.Those lines made me to feel that am I not a worth being a friend.
In the past 2 years before the entry of Ms.Y she never praised me or even defended for me to someone who tried to show me down.But now all of a sudden she showers her love to her,defends for her and the worst part...I can`t even ignore her.I really miss her... I just don`t know what is wrong with me.People loves who gossip about others and make shit jokes on someones feeling.
I can`t make witty jokes.I am quite temperamental..but that is a part of my character.Will I never have a true friend..who really loves me..:'(
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