I Want to Have Children

Always have. Even at a very young age it was something I've wanted. As I reached around the age of 12 that urge picked up heavily. I was almost obsessed. Jealous of others with children and babies. But I was only a young girl. I knew it was only a fantasy and will be for the longest time. I could only imagine how they would look or their temperament or when they'd start walking. In a way it hurt. I remember having dreams about babies, my babies, and then being taken away. I woke up heart broken as if it was real. At 12 I still didn't understand why I had this desire to be a mother. In fact... I still don't. It's just something that's always been there. I'm older and id say more rational. I think back and wonder how different life would be if I acted on impulse. Even if I did now. I aspire to be a wife, mother, and nurse. That's all I want out of life. But I know one silly "mistake" can change my path. Would that be so wrong though?