I Say What I Want To Say
Sucks can't post anything in my group. Here it goes:
It is hard to be happy when so many things start to go wrong. My mind is dark. Black. I try to shine something inside but it's too thick. When you have dreams and plans and in an instant, a word, an action, all what you hope for is gone. I makes me wonder, what did I do to you? What caused this? Am I too open? Or are you not strong enough to handle life so you take it on me?
I am strong. I know I am. I know I can hold my own but my outer strength is there to cover and protect my soft interior. I am not your throw away doll. For you to just leave and expect that I can pick up all that mess you left behind for years.
I try. I really try. But it seems no matter how close I get, it is not worth it. So, if you want me gone, so be it. I will be gone. I did not need you before, no way in hell am I going to make myself need you now. Kick rocks!
*Nothing to do with my husband*
It is hard to be happy when so many things start to go wrong. My mind is dark. Black. I try to shine something inside but it's too thick. When you have dreams and plans and in an instant, a word, an action, all what you hope for is gone. I makes me wonder, what did I do to you? What caused this? Am I too open? Or are you not strong enough to handle life so you take it on me?
I am strong. I know I am. I know I can hold my own but my outer strength is there to cover and protect my soft interior. I am not your throw away doll. For you to just leave and expect that I can pick up all that mess you left behind for years.
I try. I really try. But it seems no matter how close I get, it is not worth it. So, if you want me gone, so be it. I will be gone. I did not need you before, no way in hell am I going to make myself need you now. Kick rocks!
*Nothing to do with my husband*
