I Miss Home
I feel it right now. She feels it too. She's in our home from home. I'm literally at home with my parents. My home is with her, in SA. Her home is with her Dad and her sister. She's undervalued but reasonably well paid. I'm in a job well below my theoretical abilities (theoretical because no employer seems to recognise them beyone "thanks, we love your cv, but go away"). We each struggle. And we're apart. Springtime is animals' natural mating season. Life is getting harder by the day, especially as the honeymoon period of actually having a job and earning income is wearing off - I want a speaker, and some ingredients. I've worked 11 weeks and can afford neither.
A lot is missing from my life, but it's time to fill some of that hole with friendships I've never had before. I wish the same could be done for her too, but actually I think it can.
A chance encounter with an old housemate on facebook, she supported me. I told my She about it. Then I realised if she reached out like that sometimes support might come from the most unlikely places for her too. So, she could end up re-forging her old friendships too.
That would be great for when we're finally back together. 2 sets of friends, for once. I honestly don't have many. Well, I don't know that I've ever really had a friend. It's starting to happen in this job though. Just starting.
When doors close, it really means better doors are opening. Just have to refocus your eyes and ears, heart and mind, to see it.
#hardtimes
PS it's easy to be outwardly optimistic. Say tomorrow's another day. But inside, to believe it... To believe it you have to truly make tomorrow a new day, fill it with your dreams and opportunities. That sounds like a plan, actually ;)
A lot is missing from my life, but it's time to fill some of that hole with friendships I've never had before. I wish the same could be done for her too, but actually I think it can.
A chance encounter with an old housemate on facebook, she supported me. I told my She about it. Then I realised if she reached out like that sometimes support might come from the most unlikely places for her too. So, she could end up re-forging her old friendships too.
That would be great for when we're finally back together. 2 sets of friends, for once. I honestly don't have many. Well, I don't know that I've ever really had a friend. It's starting to happen in this job though. Just starting.
When doors close, it really means better doors are opening. Just have to refocus your eyes and ears, heart and mind, to see it.
#hardtimes
PS it's easy to be outwardly optimistic. Say tomorrow's another day. But inside, to believe it... To believe it you have to truly make tomorrow a new day, fill it with your dreams and opportunities. That sounds like a plan, actually ;)
36-40, M