I Hate Acne

Ruining My Life... My mom had chronic acne from when she hit puberty until she took Accutane when she was 35. So unfortunately, I have her genes. I have had bad acne since 5th grade, & I am about to turn 20 this year. Every morning I wake up I just want to go back to sleep because I feel so ugly when I look at myself in the mirror. I just don't understand what I did to deserve this hideous curse. I hate going into public because in order to even remotely be ok with myself, I need to wear 10 pounds of makeup. I spend almost an hour on my hair just to make up for the fact that I have a disgusting complexion. I hate when people look at me because I can feel them judging me for my face, not who I am. I cannot blame them, the acne is hard to see beyond. I have 0 self confidence to the point where I don't even want to be intimate with my boyfriend because I feel so ugly. I just wish I could afford Accutane, and maybe my curse would go away. Until then, I just need to find a way to live with myself.