I'm Sorry But I Just Can't Explain Myself

6:30am
21st of March

I can't explain myself. I wish you understand me more. There are things going in my mind but I don't know how to say it.

I feel sorry for what I am. For being such an asshole. For being naive and selfish person. I'm too awful to look at.I'm too bad for you..

I love you because you loved me from my worst to my best. I love you for staying always by my side. I love you because you make me happy when I'm sad. I love you because I'm so comfortable when I'm with you. I love you because you're the reason why I'm staying strong.

But...

I want you to stop loving me. I keep on hurting you. I don't deserve your love..

But...

When you leave me, I'd die. I won't have any reason to be happy anymore.

I wish I can be the person you want me to be. I've tried but I can't.

I love you too much it hurts...

SoFine · 46-50, F

Then it is time to build up your self - worth.

You place your worth outside of you - it has to come from within you.

Your first true love is your self-love - why?

Then you wont drain love out - with self-worth you know your true value.

To be happy is your job for you - how you have you be happy is for you to figure out.

If you don't -then you will always be as you have written above - weak and needy.

Quote for you:
He who knows others is wise; he who knows himself is enlightened.”
― Lao Tzu