I had a good day.
I had a pretty good day today excluding one single event.
I went to Warhammer because my friends were going to be there, and won the one game I played. It was my Lumineth vs one of my friend's Nighthaunt and another's Maggotkin, with them having 750pts each and me 1500. At the end of the third turn they conceded because there were two Nighthaunt models and 4 Maggotkin models while half my army still lived. I also finished the last bits needed for Primaris Pedro Kantor, but am kind of afraid to paint him. I also bought a (questionable) Leviathan Dreadnought from one of the younger guys, which I'm planning on building tomorrow.
The one bad thing was that a couple of people who hadn't come in since about 2017 showed up. One's really high energy and the other low energy, but they play off and feed into each other in a way that makes them far more loud and annoying to be around than had only one been present. And they'd come in seemingly entirely to see if anyone wanted to buy/trade for miniatures they had found at the dump (technically it's a 'refuse transfer centre' and not an actual landfill) where one of them works.
Look, I know that nobody's particularly interested in hearing about my day or Warhammer or literally anything I say pretty much ever. I struggle to believe that anyone feels anything towards me here beyond complete ambivalence. And knowing all of that eats at me, because it feels pretty much the same whenever I go out and interact with others in real life too; like everyone has something more important at any given moment that they have to stop doing in order to deal with my insignificant, petty, and overall worthless existence. I'm genuinely unsure what the point is in human interaction beyond talking to my friends any more. Right now I'm questioning why I stick around at all, both here and in life. I can pretty much say almost for a fact that nobody's going to miss me on this site, and few would in real life. If I'm still feeling this way tomorrow then I'll go altogether, since it's clear unhappiness. So should this be my last post, I wish anyone who actually reads this a good day and a nice life. Bye.
I went to Warhammer because my friends were going to be there, and won the one game I played. It was my Lumineth vs one of my friend's Nighthaunt and another's Maggotkin, with them having 750pts each and me 1500. At the end of the third turn they conceded because there were two Nighthaunt models and 4 Maggotkin models while half my army still lived. I also finished the last bits needed for Primaris Pedro Kantor, but am kind of afraid to paint him. I also bought a (questionable) Leviathan Dreadnought from one of the younger guys, which I'm planning on building tomorrow.
The one bad thing was that a couple of people who hadn't come in since about 2017 showed up. One's really high energy and the other low energy, but they play off and feed into each other in a way that makes them far more loud and annoying to be around than had only one been present. And they'd come in seemingly entirely to see if anyone wanted to buy/trade for miniatures they had found at the dump (technically it's a 'refuse transfer centre' and not an actual landfill) where one of them works.
Look, I know that nobody's particularly interested in hearing about my day or Warhammer or literally anything I say pretty much ever. I struggle to believe that anyone feels anything towards me here beyond complete ambivalence. And knowing all of that eats at me, because it feels pretty much the same whenever I go out and interact with others in real life too; like everyone has something more important at any given moment that they have to stop doing in order to deal with my insignificant, petty, and overall worthless existence. I'm genuinely unsure what the point is in human interaction beyond talking to my friends any more. Right now I'm questioning why I stick around at all, both here and in life. I can pretty much say almost for a fact that nobody's going to miss me on this site, and few would in real life. If I'm still feeling this way tomorrow then I'll go altogether, since it's clear unhappiness. So should this be my last post, I wish anyone who actually reads this a good day and a nice life. Bye.
