I Sometimes Feel Emotionless
days like this I go through pretty often.
It started yesterday when I felt it happening, my mood deciding to change, I knew I'd be spending time alone.
I feel drained, lost and just in a mood where I need to basically recharge till i can deal with another day.
I can come off as cold, uncaring, distant and depressed in this mood, where I am almost like the opposite of myself. though conscience to what it is I'm doing or saying to people when I am like this, getting mad at myself for having to shut people away until I feel "normal" again.
I hate it, and I never know when I'm gonna feel like this either.
I know my family understands but I still feel like jerk when I have to tell them no I can't help out today or no I can't help babysit.
I just hate this part of me.
It started yesterday when I felt it happening, my mood deciding to change, I knew I'd be spending time alone.
I feel drained, lost and just in a mood where I need to basically recharge till i can deal with another day.
I can come off as cold, uncaring, distant and depressed in this mood, where I am almost like the opposite of myself. though conscience to what it is I'm doing or saying to people when I am like this, getting mad at myself for having to shut people away until I feel "normal" again.
I hate it, and I never know when I'm gonna feel like this either.
I know my family understands but I still feel like jerk when I have to tell them no I can't help out today or no I can't help babysit.
I just hate this part of me.
