I Hide My True Feelings

It's true, I do hide my true feelings. I hide them sometimes from friends or family...and that can be a true for anyone and everyone because of course you think no one would understand how you feel or like you'll just bother them with it, but I mostly hide these feelings from myself I believe.

I put on a front, dawn some kind of mask that's different from who I truly want to be and how I truly feel. The mask is that of which of the choice of ignorance perhaps...a sort of obscurity of myself and my hopes...maybe it's because I know that my hopes are a highly unlikely possiblity to happen...or just rare in a sense.

I dawn the mask and choose to avoid myself, avoid what I want to feel, avoid it because I know that it most likely will never happen to me...so instead i grow this fake skin of steel and let life whisk me away...

when I know there a people who do the opposite and instead they take control, grab life by the handle...then they dictate the direction they want life to go.

And I know what I do, and I know how I do it. I go down the good and what makes me feel good...and not the best and what is best for me.

Comfortablity > Growth

Under achieve > Over achieve

So yeah it's a thing, a delhema? Problem? Struggle?...call it whatever you want.