Spending time with that little girl last night has reminded me of how much I want a child, but I know it'll never happen. After losing my wife, I don't think I'll ever find another soulmate, at least any time soon. We tried for years, but it never happened. The little boy I raised isn't my son, but I raised him. I love him more than anything, but I have this desire to have a child of my own. I'm also not getting any younger. It's painful, guys. I know my wife felt like she had robbed me of something. It bothers me to know that she died with that kind of guilt. I just needed to write that out.