I Was Abandoned In My Time Of Need

i was abandoned by a great friend i would always play with after one of us committed suicide so keep in mind this will be written as if i am thinking do bare with me

i remember us so happy until he died and we almost fell apart but you stuck with me
until that day you left without a goodbye and and you never came back you stayed near me you house was next to mine but my parents would never let me come over but you never come outside anymore and i needed you after he died because you left me on the sidewalk i was alone permanently every day i hope you come outside __-- please don't be dead please