Well. I hate to do this because I'm no doubt projecting and you haven't made it easy because you're hiding half your face, but here goes. You feel stifled. You're embarrassed at your inability to be yourself. You want to scream and let it all out, but you can't. You find your predicament funny, but at the same time sad. Apologies if I'm totally wrong, but I thought I'd give it a go. Very cool artistic pic btw.