I Hope You Know

I often think about you, still. I woke up this morning remembering how I used to wake up with that smile. Then my hands pressed to your cheeks and you will hug me. I just missed you. I feel brave when I am with you. I learned how to run in heels and laugh at small things. Everytime you'll hold my hands and keep safe by your side makes me think of forever. Everytime you'll send pictures of your hand with black stains makes me wish that I should have been there to help you. Ignoring you kills me but I love you so much and I have to do this. I saw how you cried and thank God that I am with you. That's what they don't understand. I saw how you put effort in our relationship and I saw that love. You are my exception, my somebody out there, my I wouldn't mind and I hope you know. It feels crazy that I am writing here the words that I should have told you. Hopefully, you'll be able to see this post.