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I Am Not As Strong As I Appear

People always think that I have my sh1t together! My one friend constantly tells me that I'm her "most stable, together friend" and that she loves that she can always depend on me. This stability and dependability is an impression I've painstakingly cultivated over the years and one that serves me well most of the time.

The flaw in the plan is that when I'm falling apart, nobody notices! Nobody asks how I'm doing or if I need help or even just gives me a hug and tells me things will be okay.

It really is such a double edged sword and it's stabbing me in the heart right now!

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kalanialex · 70-79, M

You said: "This stability and dependability is an impression I've painstakingly cultivated over the years and one that serves me well" ... "when I'm falling apart, nobody notices! Nobody asks how I'm doing". CTStranger, that's like trying to have your cake and eat it too and it seems to me that you realize that. You created a wall around you, for whatever reason, to keep people away including a best friend or confidant and you need at least one but if you want a friend you have to be one first. Not trusting anyone with our true feelings is one way to avoid getting hurt but often to achieve something we have to take risks ... that's life