I Will Move On When I'm Ready To Move On
Move on to where? Thats the question that tears at me.
Do i pretend it was all meaningless? Is it a desire to honor something important or is it fear of finding out it wasnt as important as you thought.
Myself, i know it wasnt important. Ive learned that. I am sick of looking back and seeing all the mistakes and lost time. Im terrified of looking forward and seeing nothing.
Its been nothing but a parade of strangers telling me to choose happiness! To move forward (to what?)! To enjoy life!
A small group of others who tried a bit to help till they got tired of it. Till i said the wrong thing or even worse, when i started to feel. I should not have done that.
They left because a drowning fool will pull you under. I dont blame them but it still hurts. I wish i was normal.
I need a world away from all.
Do i pretend it was all meaningless? Is it a desire to honor something important or is it fear of finding out it wasnt as important as you thought.
Myself, i know it wasnt important. Ive learned that. I am sick of looking back and seeing all the mistakes and lost time. Im terrified of looking forward and seeing nothing.
Its been nothing but a parade of strangers telling me to choose happiness! To move forward (to what?)! To enjoy life!
A small group of others who tried a bit to help till they got tired of it. Till i said the wrong thing or even worse, when i started to feel. I should not have done that.
They left because a drowning fool will pull you under. I dont blame them but it still hurts. I wish i was normal.
I need a world away from all.
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