I Need To Rant Now, Dont Care If You Are Listening Or Not
Another day in this place with nothing to do. It’s a long weekend and I have no energy or desire to do anything, go anywhere because except for “busy” work and errands why bother at all.
I know previous few here, all from the church but they have their lives and they have their plans and off they went. Even an impromptu group get together was canceled at the last moment. For a few short hours I had somewhere to go to tomorrow after church but those plans are gone. I’m not begrudging the people who canceled the plans but for a moment at least I was able to ditch the notion that I’d spend more time alone.
It’s sunny and hot here. The a/c goes on and off. I feel so burdened. My heart is so heavy from my recent loss and now her secrets died with me with no answers to questions I never even knew existed.
I wonder what my purpose is here. I don’t I understand anything. I’m even too tired to ask questions because what does it really matter.
I know previous few here, all from the church but they have their lives and they have their plans and off they went. Even an impromptu group get together was canceled at the last moment. For a few short hours I had somewhere to go to tomorrow after church but those plans are gone. I’m not begrudging the people who canceled the plans but for a moment at least I was able to ditch the notion that I’d spend more time alone.
It’s sunny and hot here. The a/c goes on and off. I feel so burdened. My heart is so heavy from my recent loss and now her secrets died with me with no answers to questions I never even knew existed.
I wonder what my purpose is here. I don’t I understand anything. I’m even too tired to ask questions because what does it really matter.
