I Need To Rant Now, Dont Care If You Are Listening Or Not

I am so happy whenever I see him, he is beautiful inside and out. I just want to cry because as much as Ivalue his friendship. I want to tell him how much I like him. Like is too small a word but Love isn't possible.. I'm totally infatuated and still can't help it. I love when he hugs me, it turns my insides to mush. I love hearing him recite his sweet nothings full of love, his poems.. I secretly wish they were meant for me. I love how real and transparent he is, he tells his past and what he's been through to whoever will listen and makes it known just how much Jesus has done for him and is doing everyday. I love how much he loves Jesus but he can still let loose and be silly and charming in a graceful way. Maybe I do actually Love him. Only God can say.