I Am Feeling Numb

Today I woke up in a weird state of mind... there is a lot to get done and yet don’t know where to start.. I was carrying my 6 months old baby and out in the garden where I needed to clean out the fallen leaves at the same time but wasn’t able to since am carrying the baby and every time I leave him down he just cries ... and my other 3 year old was playing with the water so I had to go in the house again before losing my mind...
I wanted to make flat bread for breakfast but that also didn’t happen ...
wanted to clean and organize the things around the house and plan for dinner and tomorrow meals ... plus I need to go grocery shopping but to hesitant to do so because it’s always a struggle doing so with my sons ... they consume so much of my mental and physical energy... it feels like am just failing ... I don’t know how manage to do everything ...
I don’t know what am doing wrong.. it feels like time passes so fast and nothing gets done ... and at the moment am just confused .. numbed and lost ...