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I told my sister that the earliest memories I have are of me zoning out and entering a dream-like state where I'm just a passenger in my body. Like Buzz Lightyear in a spacesuit in zero gravity. I used to feel I'm walking on clouds and voices used to seem as if they're coming from afar. It became less and less as I grew up but it didn't go away. A couple years back I entered this weird state of blank mind that just cannot think. I read but don't register half of it. I read "upper" but understand "lower". I can't complete a chain of thought. I need a calculator for simple mathematics. I feel as if my mind has hit a cul de sac that it can't get past. This state of mind was triggered by burn out, anxiety, depression, and certain stressors that led to PTSD.
My sister responded by reminding me that I was a hyperactive child. I struggled to recall but she told me that I would be jumping on the sofa while my father would be trying to teach me. I used to drift off in class not realizing it and have been punished for it, at times severely.
She mentioned that I might have adhd.
That being said, I've also had times in my life when I was able to bring myself to focus fully and create a meaningful chain of thought for problem solving. I used to score high in mathematics too. So I'm not so sure about adhd. Lately though the lack of concentration has bothered me so much that I've been upset and frustrated. It has significantly added to my already incapacitating anxiety and depression.
My sister responded by reminding me that I was a hyperactive child. I struggled to recall but she told me that I would be jumping on the sofa while my father would be trying to teach me. I used to drift off in class not realizing it and have been punished for it, at times severely.
She mentioned that I might have adhd.
That being said, I've also had times in my life when I was able to bring myself to focus fully and create a meaningful chain of thought for problem solving. I used to score high in mathematics too. So I'm not so sure about adhd. Lately though the lack of concentration has bothered me so much that I've been upset and frustrated. It has significantly added to my already incapacitating anxiety and depression.
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