Sorry for the rant but

I wish I wasn't despicable and annoying and I wish I knew what to say and when to say it and I wish I wasn't as clueless as I am and I wish I didn't come across as "confused" and "anxious" and I wish I had a charming personality and people didn't feel irritated by my presence. :(
I wish I wasn't slow, and I wish I didn't look autistic.