They sat hand and hand in the car being careful to work the technique of the 7 year old taking direction and the bald 3 year old getting in the way to never listen to anyone but her. They where missing from their fathers home for almost 6 weeks and all Lori could do was cry aver his missing place in her life certain looking at her son with him that it was going to be until the dar\y she died. Jamie sneezed and laid his head on her lap grabbing her hand and looked into her eyes and said you know... im about 5 years old you must be almost thirteen... can we get married when your thirteen I promise even though hes gone you will always have me and I will always take care of your mother because she needs you more than anyone in the world because of the two people we are with and I promise I will find a way back to her and away from them. She started sobbbing and he held her hand and kissed her nose insisting he promised what he said. I\"I promise we can get married when im 13"
You know... its really it i thought that was true i thought even though he would be missing out of both our lives until the day we died that wq didnt have to be missing out of eachothers until then. I saw yu and all these memories came flooding in \\a life that had never been rememebered but was missed and throwin away the second I looked into your eyes. Why did you leave me with no intent of coming beack though you seem good at promising you will. Things are horrible i ditched my parent because they seem intent to send me somewhere where i can never see my father again. Hell. Which is what this state is. I saw HELL. Because of you. I dont know why. I dont understand. But i seem to not be able to live in free will anymore or with a brain that my father and your father even exist. The part of me that would put my hand on your sweaty head after making love in cars.
Im so flipping mad at you and so scared ill never see steve again.
